grandpa's funeral

i didn't go to school today
cuz of grandpa's funeral :(
cried alot today

seeing grandpa laid in his white coffin....
it's so peaceful with the song played softly in the background
i've decided i also want a simple white coffin for my funeral XD
i know it's early, but who knows what might happen :)

the hardest part for today
was seeing the coffin slowly move into the cremation room
i turned away that minute
it was hard :(
but i know grandpa is in a much better place now
and we are going to meet him again soon
we are going to collect the ashes tomorrow morning

i just saw some blog that says it is sinful to be cremated for Christians
and says if we do get cremated,how do we get save?
i mean c'mon............
the teaching you're getting is a little off don't you think?

it is our souls that will be saved, not our bodies
besides, our bodies is just a temporary thing
when we are dead, we are dead
the body doesn't belong to us anymore
and no matter what we are, ashes or rotten flesh.....
God made us, He knows who we are
He doesn't need those to recognise us
all of us are going to get a brand new body that are not corruptable
when the time comes

think about that, will you??

3rd day of school

school was okay today....
our form teacher finally change our place
i'm no longer in the first row!!!!! yay!!!

but when i say i want to be at the back
doesn't mean i want to be at the very last of the last line in class!!!
now i'm stuck at the corner :/
it's still ok,
it's just that i'm scared i can't pay attention
and drift off to my own La La Land

the teacher said we (me and the other girl)
are the tallest in class so he wants us to APPEAR on the two corners
to take care of the class
and yes, he actually said APPEAR
we are not angels you know!!!! XD
we are not even class monitors or prefects XD
what was he talking about!!!
anyway, sis fetch me home after

school
mom told me to visit my grandpa who was very weak and ill
he suffered from cancer
but i can't go because i have lots of things to do

today on the way home
saw mom's car in my grandma's house
so we just dropped by to visit my grandpa
i was shocked when i saw him
he was very skinny,
he looked like a skeleton with his rib cage sticking out :(
he was really really weak
he didn't have the energy to lift up his head, eat and drink

we went home at about 2 something
i remembered i had my nap at exactly 3 in the afternoon
was woken up by sis around 4.15
and she told me that grandpa passed away at 3.45 in the afternoon :(((

we went to my grandma's house immediately which is just around the corner
grandpa was already dressed up nicely in his suit
at first i felt sad, but i tried to remain calm
but once i saw mom cried when she dress up my grandpa
tears rolled down my cheeks and the memories flow through my mind
i remember grandpa always gives me piggy back rides
when he's still healthy and strong
and i will always clean his ears XD

the most touching thing is that
there is a piano in my grandma's house
it was given by my grandpa to my mom when she was just 4
so it's about 40 years old

mom told us she will never sell that piano
she called a tuner to tune the piano on Tuesday
and after tuning it, my mom pushed my grandpa on the wheelchair
and just let him play the piano,
he moved his finger a bit but he's very weak and gets tired easily
who knew, he's gone the next day :(((((

2nd day of school

2nd day......
today's period made me nervous the most!!!!
cuz there are chinese, accounts and add math
accounts and add math was not that bad today
but chinese......it's nightmare i tell you!!!!!
i'm so so so so D.E.A.D!!!!!

we have to prepare some recent news article everytime
she'll call us anytime she wants
to come out and present the article
and the rest of us will have to find the mistake, faulty, etc made
if we can't find any, whole class will get punished

and the articles we present must be original
if found that there are changes is the article
the presenter will be punished X(

she'll also ask all the chinese idioms stuff
if we don't know
she'll make us copy chinese idioms on
old newspapers using calligraphy for a thousand times
i know because it happened to my sis XD
mom and i helped her to write that time...haha!!!

there had been an additional one period of chinese
6 periods a week, only monday is free from chinese
i love monday!!!!!! XD
let's just pray that the teacher will change A.S.A.P!!!!!
2 periods of chinese tomorrow!!! yikes!!!!!
wish me luck!!!

First Day of School

hey ppl,
4th of January, first day of school
can't believe we are already Form 5!!!!
senior = old

well.......it's not a good year
have to deal with my arch enemy, SPM X(
but it's our final year in high school
so i just have to bare with it....hmph!

today was okay
but i want to change place!!!!
i don't want to sit in the first row :(
it's not safe you know!!!!!

there are some subjects that are bothering me this year:

1. Add math
-failed many times, don't even know what it's all about
-don't know how the teacher will teach this year, finding tuition now :(

2. Account
-haven't got an A in accounts yet
-spend too much time when doing the questions
-the teacher makes me nervous, but she is a good teacher :D
- always forgot how to do :(

3. Perdagangan
-the way the teacher teach is totally different from last year's
- she ask a lot of question, so have to study everyday
- she's strict!!!! it wasn't easy to pass when she's marking the paper

4. Chinese
- one of my weakest subject
- being a chinese and yet i failed a couple of times
- this year's teacher was the one who taught my sister
- she always against my sister cause my sister always fails too
- so, being her sister, with the same problem and being number one in the name list like my
sister which is easy to spot, i'm DEAD!!!!!!

and there other subjects that bothers me also
but they are not as serious as the 4 subs above :)

gonna start doing revision tonight for my account and add math
GAMBATEH!!!!!!

fingers still sore from playing the guitar yesterday XD
bye.

haiz.......

hey guys........
i bet you all know about the chaos that happened
during Christmas Eve at Gurney Drive,right?

well, i saw The Star newspaper
and there is a photo of the fight and i saw a guy whom i know, in the background
you know the guy that i mentioned in my previous post
that his dad is gonna send him to jail......

at first, i stared at the picture and kinda figure out whether it's him or not
cuz the pic is kinda blurry
and my mum said it was him.......
so today during youth,
my godma mentioned it again
and it's 100% confirmed it was him :(

my godma said to us that she had seen the fight in youtube
and the boy didn't involve in the fight
he was trying to rescue his friend,
he didn't even spray that night
so, that's good to know :)

but when you have friends like that and the newspaper had your pics in a fight
you'll automatically capture the attention of the police, right?
so, the police are looking for him now :(
he's afraid of leaving the house now :(

was trying to search youtube for the videos
there is one that looks like him
but the clothes are different from what i remember..hmmm
there was another video that i think it's the right one
but it has been removed X(

but anyways, to me he's innocent,
he juz mix with the wrong bunch of ppl that will lead him into endless troubles
hope he is able to settle this thing ASAP,
will always keep him in my prayers :)

Owl City

hey ppl,
just changed my blog songs
both songs are from Owl City

1. The Saltwater Room
2.Fireflies

i think these songs are very calming and suitable for blogs :)
try and listen to it
i know i like it but what about you?? :)